It is much better to be tied to one wonderful thing than to allow a mere catalog of wonderful things to deprive you of the capacity to wonder.
G. K. Chesterton
Of all forms of literature, however, the essay is the one which least calls for the use of long words.
Virginia Woolf
Were we to illuminate the most ordinary, common, and familiar of things, then the greatest miracles of nature and the most marvelous examples, especially concerning human actions, might be formed.
Michel de Montaigne
Others have taken heart to speak of themselves because they found the subject worthy and rich; I, on the contrary, because I have found mine so pointless and so meager that no one could suspect me of ostentation.
Michel de Montaigne
Everything I see or hear is an essay in bud. The world is everywhere whispering essays, and one need only be the world’s amanuensis.
Alexander Smith
[The "light" essay] offers no instruction, save through the medium of enjoyment, and one saunters lazily along with a charming unconsciousness of effort.
Agnes Repplier
The task of the essayist is to collect the fruit of his experience, reflect on it, and set it out for our consideration.
Ian Jack
The world is not so much in need of new thoughts as that when thought grows old and worn with usage it should, like current coin, be called in, and, from the mint of genius, reissued fresh and new.
Alexander Smith
And on the loftiest throne in the world we are still sitting only on our own rump.
Michel de Montaigne
One can tie up all moral philosophy with an ordinary and private life just as easily as with a life of richer stuff: Each person bears the entire form of the human condition.
Michel de Montaigne
As it maps the territory of the self, the essay details the particulars of everyday life…. The wonder is not that art can be made of such ordinary stuff, but that we should expect it to be found anywhere else.
G. Douglas Atkins
As for me … I enjoy living among pedestrians who have an instinctive and habitual realization that there is more to a journey than the mere fact of arrival.
E. B. White

Auscultation

Cham­ber 1

In Au­gust 2007 we all waited to hear news of 6 miners trapped 1500 feet un­der­ground by a massive cave-in at the Cran­dall Canyon coal mine in Utah, a cata­stroph­ic col­lapse so in­tense that it re­gistered as a 3.9 mag­nitude earth­quake on seis­mo­graphs. As res­cuers began the ar­du­ous 3-day pro­cess of dig­ging the men out, they also erec­ted seis­mic listen­ing devices on the sur­face and set off 3 dy­nam­ite charges, a sig­nal to any sur­viv­ing miners to make noise. Lots of noise. The elec­tron­ic ears listened for the sound of ham­mers pound­ing on the rock and on roof bolts, the tell­tale rap-and-thump of hu­man life. We listened and listened but nev­er heard a thing.

Six miners miss­ing. Six bore­holes drilled in­to dif­fer­ent areas of the mine. They sent oxy­gen sensors, cam­er­as, and mi­cro­phones down through PVC pipe, fish­ing in each hole, search­ing every pos­sible area for the men. Oxy­gen levels were mis­read, con­fused, and ul­ti­mately de­term­ined to be dan­ger­ously low. Three res­cue work­ers try­ing to dig the trapped miners out were also killed when a wall of the mine “ex­plodes”, crush­ing them. We nev­er saw or heard any sign of the miners, and all 6 men were con­sidered miss­ing and pre­sumed dead. All res­cue ef­forts were even­tu­ally aban­doned. I don’t know if there is a sig­nal for this, an­oth­er series of blasts to say good­bye, or some oth­er ce­re­mo­ni­al end to the search. Maybe they just switch off the drills and un­plug their ears.

The own­er of the mine, Bob Mur­ray held a press con­fer­ence and said, “Had I known that this evil moun­tain, this alive moun­tain, would do what it did, I would nev­er have sent the miners in here. I’ll nev­er go near that moun­tain again.”

Fi­nally a sev­enth hole was bored in­to the moun­tain and through this hole they pumped thou­sands of gal­lons of mud and debris, filling all re­main­ing cav­it­ies and seal­ing the tomb off per­man­ently with the miss­ing miners still in­side.

Re­search­ers today at Utah State Uni­versity are work­ing to cre­ate more ef­fect­ive listen­ing and noise-mak­ing devices to help trapped miners – some of them seem­ingly crude and simplist­ic, yet still ef­fect­ive. One plan calls for 4 x 4 inch iron plates to be placed at reg­u­lar in­ter­vals in the tun­nels, with sledge­ham­mers kept nearby – the idea be­ing that a trapped miner can find his way to a sta­tion and slam the ham­mer in­to the iron plate over and over again. Think of the noise be­low. Think of your ears. Geo­phones on the sur­face – the kind of sensors they use to an­ti­cip­ate earth­quakes – would re­gister the sound waves cre­ated by the ham­mer pings and cre­ate a listen­ing grid, a kind of sound map of the mine, which they would then use to pin­point the ex­act loc­a­tion of any miners still kick­ing be­low the rugged skin.

Cham­ber 2

Re­call the ice-cold press of the met­al disc against your cav­ity, the sting and soft burn as it warms on your clavicle, your breast­bone, fin­gers mov­ing met­al across your na­ked chest, around be­hind, fin­ger­tips step­ping down your spine, one hand on your hip, maybe your shoulder, the oth­er slid­ing around your rib-cage, al­ways, al­ways with the whispered com­mand, breathe . . . breathe . . . good, and the eyes star­ing not at you but at the cold dia­phragm, the metal­lic spot on your body, listen­ing as if your body pos­sesses a voice of its own and speaks in a lan­guage only oth­ers un­der­stand. The dia­phragm will only broad­cast its secret to the touch. It knows you. And when it touches you, it sings sounds of your body, noises you can barely ima­gine – the hyp­not­ic pump of or­gans, the soft ebb and flow of blood in your veins, and the breathy whis­per of lungs at work – noises that can name you nor­mal, healthy, or not. The in­tim­ate in­stru­ment – the steth­o­scope – knows your body in a way your own hands and ears nev­er can.

Cham­ber 3

Some heart doc­tors train their ears on clas­sic­al mu­sic – Moz­art and Bach and Chop­in – learn­ing to dis­cern the in­di­vidu­al in­stru­ments: to hear bari­tone from trom­bone, trum­pet from sax, and the tum-tum of kettle over bongo or bass. They learn to listen for the flaws and fail­ings of the heart, to re­cog­nize the mu­sic of ma­chine-like muscle ef­fi­ciency, and to un­der­stand when a noise is a bad noise. They de­pend on the steth­o­scope for more than dia­gnoses. They need it to be whole. Noth­ing prom­ises Doc­tor like a steth­o­scope draped around an ex­posed neck or curled over a pressed, collared shirt, per­haps tucked neatly in­to the pock­et of a white lab coat, or clutched firmly in hand, au­thor­it­at­ively like a crafts­man’s ham­mer, a plumb­er’s seat wrench, or a sur­geon’s scalpel – the only tool for a spe­cif­ic job. You are fa­mil­i­ar with the flex­ible latex tubing, the chrome-plated ear tubes, the hard met­al dia­phragm – cold, round, smooth as pearl, re­flect­ive as a mir­ror. The steth­o­scope im­me­di­ately iden­ti­fies a doc­tor – an icon of care and pain man­age­ment, a reliquary of body know­ledge, someone you trust with your life. Think of the things you’ve al­lowed an­oth­er per­son to do and say to you, mainly be­cause he wore the uni­form of doc­tor and car­ried a steth­o­scope. We don’t check re­sumes or cre­den­tials, don’t ask for ser­vice re­views or cer­ti­fic­ates. We ex­pect and ac­cept the ob­ject. Even if it’s nev­er used (but it’s al­ways used), its ap­pear­ance con­jures a sense memory of that re­peated sweet burn when pressed to your flesh. Re­gard­less of phys­ic­al con­text or at­tire (say at a crowded beach, in a sub­way, or on a moun­tain trail) the steth­o­scope speaks. It says, “I am a doc­tor,” and in so do­ing it grants rights and re­spons­ib­il­it­ies, ob­lig­a­tions and ex­pect­a­tions. It tells us you will do no harm. It tells us you know what you are talk­ing about. Every child’s Doc­tor play-set comes with a plastic steth­o­scope be­cause you can’t dress up as a doc­tor without one.

As ob­ject, it func­tions as both ne­ces­sary and suf­fi­cient con­di­tion of “Doc­tor­ness”. But this iden­tity and im­age – of the Doc­tor as listen­er, as di­viner of sig­ni­fic­ant sounds through a steth­o­scope, the ma­gi­cian of aus­culta­tion – is a re­l­at­ively new one, just over 150 years old. The French doc­tor René Laen­nec is cred­ited by many for in­vent­ing the first steth­o­scope, or at least for in­tro­du­cing the dia­gnost­ic prac­tice of aus­culta­tion. In a pa­per pub­lished in 1819, he says:

I was con­sul­ted by a young wo­man with symp­toms of a dis­eased heart … per­cus­sion was of little avail on ac­count … of fat­ness. The ap­plic­a­tion of the ear … in­ad­miss­ible by the age and sex of the pa­tient. I re­col­lec­ted a fact in acous­tics … the aug­men­ted sound con­veyed through sol­id bod­ies.… I rolled a quire of pa­per in­to a cyl­in­der and ap­plied one end to the heart and one end to the ear … and thereby per­ceived the ac­tion of the heart … more clear and dis­tinct. I have been en­abled to dis­cov­er new signs of the dis­eases of the lungs, heart and pleura.

It wasn’t un­til the 1851 in­ven­tion by Ar­thur Leared, and the re­fine­ment in 1852 by George Cam­mann, of the bin­aur­al steth­o­scope – a simple but in­cred­ibly sig­ni­fic­ant in­stru­ment – that the prac­tice of re­fined aus­culta­tion began to de­vel­op and doc­tors could listen in ste­reo to the sounds of the body. Be­fore that it was a crude mon­aur­al amp­li­fy­ing horn, Laen­nec’s ear-trum­pet, which offered little more than a dis­tant thump against the rib cage. Without bin­aur­al steth­o­scope tech­no­logy, aus­culta­tion was more like listen­ing for trees fall­ing in a dis­tant forest or miners tap­ping faintly in a deep pit. But doc­tors still pressed ears to chest cav­it­ies and listened for the pings, try­ing to read the heart’s noises and tremors. L. A. Con­ner (1866-1950), the founder of the Amer­ic­an Heart As­so­ci­ation, is said to have car­ried a silk handker­chief to place on the wall of the chest for ear aus­culta­tion.

For 100 years car­di­olo­gists re­lied on Cam­mann’s bin­aur­al scope to de­tect the slight­est ab­nor­mal­ity, ar­rhythmia, skip, hop, ham­mer, block or stut­ter. 1952 and 1964 saw fur­ther re­fine­ments of the tra­di­tion­al bin­aur­al steth­o­scope, with many car­di­olo­gists be­liev­ing that the now all-but-ob­sol­ete Rap­port-Sprague was the finest aus­culta­tion device ever made or used, al­low­ing them un­pre­ced­en­ted clar­ity and con­sist­ency.

Cur­rent re­search is fo­cused on de­vel­op­ing a re­li­able elec­tron­ic amp­li­fied steth­o­scope, which is not ac­tu­ally a listen­ing device but a noise trans­lat­or that gen­er­ates a re­pro­duc­tion of the heart­beat, bul­ly­ing the hu­man ear out of its place as the dir­ect re­gister of the heart.

I first heard the whoosh-whoosh of my daugh­ter’s heart as re­pro­duc­tion, as an elec­tron­ic trans­mis­sion through a fetal heart mon­it­or strapped to my wife’s belly – an elec­tron­ic steth­o­scope. The sound is less a thump than a slosh. More valve and flap than muscled push. But it is still a treas­ured sound. For most of our pren­at­al vis­its, med­ic­al in­ter­ven­tion ex­ten­ded only as far as place­ment of the fetal heart mon­it­or. The first thing we did – doc­tor and par­ents – was listen. All to­geth­er. We awaited the news of life. And any­one who’s been in this place un­der­stands the simple com­fort of that sound, the re­as­sur­ance of that noise – or more dir­ectly, the doc­tor’s re­cog­ni­tion that this is nor­mal noise.

A baby’s heart­beat is the first sens­ory ex­per­i­ence a fath­er has with his child, of­ten the first mo­ment that a fath­er be­gins to think of the fetus as a child. A baby: body and brain and lungs and drum­ming hearts. An iden­tity: the first hint of pos­sib­il­ity filtered through an elec­tron­ic trans­lat­or, re­pro­duced from a tiny speak­er. Noth­ing prom­ises per­son like these first heart sounds. Noth­ing says, it be­gins, like the wish-wish-wish noise of the stub­born pump – and I say this with both know­ledge and ig­nor­ance of the eth­ic­al im­plic­a­tions for some.

Per­haps be­cause of facts, stats, opin­ions, and ideas – or per­haps be­cause I had no oth­er way to feel my wife’s preg­nancy – fath­er­hood was mostly an ab­strac­tion. I nev­er really began to feel like a baby’s fath­er un­til I heard the thump­ing in­side, that tell-tale tap­ping. Or per­haps my son was not a son, my daugh­ter not a daugh­ter, at least in part, un­til their first heart noises re­gistered in my ear – a form­a­tion of iden­tity that wasn’t even pos­sible when my grand­fath­er was born in 1906, or my fath­er in 1945, and was still only a rough sci­ence when I was born in 1971. But I know that, in many ways, I did not identi­fy my­self as a fath­er un­til I heard my child’s heart, and that I couldn’t have heard this without the aid of a steth­o­scope. Most of us identi­fy a doc­tor by the steth­o­scope, that in­tim­ate disc. But it also iden­ti­fies par­ent and child. All three fledgling iden­tit­ies in­ter­twine in that ex­am­in­a­tion room, hope­lessly de­pend­ent on the curl and twist­ing turns of simple listen­ing tech­no­logy, the only tool for the vi­tal job of read­ing and feel­ing the rhythmic thumps of the heart, that tap-tap-tap sig­nal of life we can­not see and I can in no oth­er way sense.

Cham­ber 4

The year is 2002, and 9 coal miners are trapped in the Quecreek Mine in Pennsylvania by rising wa­ter re­leased after a drilling ma­chine punches through a wall in­to an un­der­ground spring. The 9 men – a fath­er and son among the crew – re­treat to the highest spot in the mine and rope them­selves to­geth­er. They listen for the sig­nal from the sur­face – 3 small ex­plo­sions – but don’t hear any­thing. They start pound­ing on the roof bolts with their ham­mers, hop­ing to make some noise the sur­face can re­cog­nize. They pound and pound, but back­ground noise on the sur­face in­ter­feres, and the seis­mic listen­ing devices can’t hear them. The men write notes to fam­ily mem­bers, seal them in a met­al lunch box, and wait to die. As res­cuers work frantic­ally to pull wa­ter from the mine with massive dies­el-powered pumps, they also drill down from the sur­face to pump oxy­gen in­to the cave where the res­cuers hope the men have re­treated. If the miners are alive, they can only be in one place, all of them pro­tec­ted by a small womb of air against the rising flood. The miners con­tin­ue pound­ing on the roof bolts, but they get no re­sponse. The miners’ fam­il­ies gath­er on the sur­face, huddled in a tent around the drill op­er­at­or – be­cause per­haps he is more than an op­er­at­or and more than muscle: he’s more like the hu­man side of the ma­chine, the listen­ing side, the man with the touch, who watches the spin of met­al, wait­ing. When the drill fi­nally reaches the light-less room, 240 feet down, and punches like an am­nio-needle in­to the pock­et, the drill op­er­at­or shuts off the ma­chine, quiets the crowd, and listens. I won­der what it was that he listened for. How faint? How rhythmic? He listens, his hands on the ma­chine, un­til he fi­nally hears or feels the rhythmic noise of the trapped men ham­mer­ing at the steel – the sole mu­sic­al evid­ence of sur­viv­al. Above them, on the out­side, the ex­pect­ant wives and moth­ers re­joice. They hug the man at the drill and slap each oth­er on the back and think of how they can’t wait to see and touch and smell their ba­bies again. ornament

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